I can't keep putting myself through this number checking hell

I just checked my lottery numbers and I thought I was going to cry. Real tears sprang up in my eyes. I read the big red letters and it said YOU ARE A WINNER! When I re-read it, it actually said ARE YOU A WINNER? For 4 seconds, I was like "praise the Lord, Glory, at long last". Then I re-read what it said. Well it might as well have said hell no girl child, you ain't no winner today... get on with your cooking and cleaning cos you ain't getting on no P. Diddy yacht tonight!! I was so gutted it's still bothering me now and I don't think I can put myself through this checking of numbers every week anymore. It's too stressful.